♪♫ We're all living in Amerika, Amerika it's wunderbar! ♪♫

And don't forget that ''This is not a love song"!

(Amerika by Rammstein)

SWEET KISSES!


Jay

WRONG!.... SO WHAT?

Maybe if you look deeper inside my eyes all you will see is two black (or brown) empty holes which don't tell you anything, not even a simple whisper... nothing! They are the eyes of someone who doesn't care. Of someone who is running fast in the wrong way straight to the hell.

But this is the fate: to be always in the wrong place, talking to the wrong people and still hoping to reap the right reward... What a pretence! I could not demand a lot from someone with such limited reasoning ability!

I've tried to be "good", but all i could do is being myself and then people started to say tha i'm EVIL. Well in this case i can't help them and i also won't make any effort to change their minds, maybe they are not wrong at all.....

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Jay

3... 2... 1... FIRE!!!

You may be asking yourself: Why does she did that to me? Why does she calls me fool everytime, she doesn't even know me? What is the reason of such hate inside that heart? Why does she denigrates my image like this? Does she feel satisfied with this?

Yeah i do!

So let us start from the origin

Did i ask your opinion when i decided to build my own fate regardless of the wild winds that came against me? You all just said: ''She's just a fucking crazy bitch and she won't get it!" Did i ask your help when i've fought against the world to full-fill my goals? Absolutely no! I walk by my own and use to do ANYTHING to obtain sucess in everything i do in this life, so if you don't agree with my methods and with the way how i manage my own life, dear, fuck you!

All that people know is criticize what they fear, what is unknow to them, what makes them feel small, what is a chalenge to them but instead to try understand they just crucify. I'm not afraid of anyone or anything so don't waste your time trying intimidate me kids!

I may not pull the trigger, but as sure as hell if you do something to deserve that i'll surely give you the gun and open the grave for you. The rest is with you...

Freak! Is that how you call me right? Well i prefer to live up this nickname than share the same dirty cup that this hypocrite and ridiculous society.

I don't wanna induce anyone to use a feeling like hate as a shield, because believe me, you feel torn whithin when this is not part of your  nature and i'm not confusing justice with insane revenge, actually the concept of both as clear as crystal in my head, i call this self-defense. At first your chest will burn and throat will pain as if a torn was trying to come out through you mought. Many people in this world deserve to burn in hell, they lie, they cheat, they kill ... us... but it doesn't mean that you have to take their lives with your own hands, this is disgusting because their blood is infected... is rotten.

So let the demons take care of them and don't worry, they will! And in face of all of these facts i just have one thing to tell you:

DON'T MESS WITH ME!

SWEET KISSES!

Jay

YOU ARE A PUBLIC TOILET!!

How many girls know the meaning of self respect? How many women are really able to respect their own bodies? This is not a tough question, actually as simple as you think.... MANY!

I know two girls, prostitutes from Kanpur City (U.P.) India; they're Shikha Nagpal & Aparna Gupta, and they might have sold their bodies to whole India. I really don't care about what they do with their stinky and trashed flesh and actually it's not of my business, but i just wanna expose how someone who doesn't have even one single drop of self respect can destroy herself.

Shikha Nagpal used to be a kind of low cost product in Kalyanpur, something accessible for her classmates. Insane and dirty nights of orgy have succeeded among seminal fluid jets on her face, cheap words whispered in her ears, she's put her legs up and the real party has started! So many guys and such a hard ''activity'' has brought something really bad to Shikha: her vagina is getting rotten because of a cancer, oh sure and the HIV virus has made a little visit to her!

The other face of this disgusting coin is Aparna Gupta who has aborted three kids in secret to doesn't make her parents ashamed after sell her body to the classmates, some relatives, neighbours, unknown guys, husbands, boyfriends..........

Oh shit! People like these two girls should be aborted instead had born on this world! Disgusting bitches!

If humans were created the image and likeness of their god, it's understandable a certain indian girls behavior. And moreover isn't the COWS a god in India?

I'm not telling that all indian girls are prostitutes, only 99,9% of them are cheap and dirty sluts! Isn't it Reshmi Mukherjee from Calcuta?

So girls, (and also boys) don't be a public toilet where everybody make their shit and go, leaving you as a waste and disgusting trash!

Oh sure and use condom... AWAYS you fool! This fucking world doesn't need more hungry kids or infected people!

SWEET KISSES!

Jay

TIMELINE................................

Did you already look back upon your whole life today? By chance was it with a sense of shame? I bet yes! Some people spend their damn lives saying: "I could never have done that, oh i regret this i regret that". Firstly why did you do things that you were sure you would regret later? You are not a fucking kid, maybe a little bit retarded... Well i never regret anything i do, it's such  waste of time, what have been said and done can never be undone..!

Anyway memories shall be placed in golden boxes in a safe place so they won't get lost or contaminated by worldly filth.

Even if your timeline is full of stupid things, tears, bruises, bad words, sadness, loneliness, you will take it with you forever because you can close your eyes and shake your head to disperse all your rottenness but when you open up them they will be still there... unfortunately...

People use to say ''forget the past, live the present and wait for the future" but, the past is not something that you have to forget (Would you forget it if you had killed someone last week? I don't think so) but kept in its place, means in the preterit and don't fuck your present to don't regret the future! It's all!

But one thing is true you idiot, all the things you do in life, good ones and stupid ones are part of the growing up process. So enjoy it!

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BEAUTY... ANOTHER THING TO REALLY THINK ABOUT...

They use to say if you are ugly by outside you would be surely awesome from inside... and... if you are beautiful/handsome by outside you might be futile, dumb, rude... well well let's analize this case!

I know someone who is really something like the blair witch's pet spider, yah she's evil as a demon so repulsive she is, well according to the popular belief she might be generous, lovely, a true heart person right? It's wrong.

She, D.E.T.X is the most ridiculous criature i've ever met in my whole life. Stupid, selfish, a pitiful little creature, slag who will never full-fill her most simple desire in life just because she's incompetent . She lies, she cheats... well i guess her ugliness just reflect the fucking monster she has inside herself. The fact of some people who were not benefiting from the inside outward beauty be rewarded with excellent qualities can not be generalized.

However, what about the pretty ladies with their brains full of silicon, makeup, foolish, perversion...? I also know two ladies, Ana & Mia, really beautiful girls who used to be criticized because of their ''shapes''. Well boys and girls at college used to call them futile, ugly, fat, dumb, but they were not all of these things, they were just simple girls who wanted to be part of that society without worring about ''who are they laughing of?'' But then one day these girls took a decision: ''NO ONE WILL LAUGH OF US AGAIN''. So Ana did stop to eat untill her bones almost piercing the pale skin and in few months she was looking like a skeleton. And Mia started to swallow her own fingers to discard all that super-calorie lunch and dinner in a small bucket kept under the bed... oh shit! look at that blood and vomiting mixed! Well at least now they are within the society standards.

Beauty... ugliness.... it's all so relative, should the meaning of beauty be a perfect face, big boobs, awesome body, a great soul, a good heart, consideration for the others, respect, makeup, shiny and soft hair?

And what about the ugliness? Could it be rotten teeth, brittle and dull hair, ghastly face, stupidity, cowardice, cynicism, arrogance, leprous skin?

Who gave you the right of call someone ugly just because this someone doesn't look like you wanted you fagot, or who told you that you can call that pretty girl futile and dumb just because you are not as clever as her you worthless bitch.

EACH ONE HAS THE BEAUTY THAT DESERVES!

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BIZARRE!!

What is the meaning of BIZARRE for you?

1. Could it be eating living rats on breakfast while feeling its little bones braking among your teeths and the disgusting blood flowing through your lips?

2. Or is it the bleeding fists of a young lady who did cut them with a razor just to take her parents attention?

3. Even firing your own head and rubing salt on the red and hot flesh just to feel the delicious sensation of coming out from the own body to another sphere... the pain... (hum it's so good!);

4. Also Hot and kinky copulation of a decent lady with a dirty pig ... not her stern and good husband ... but the piggy produced in the back of the kitchen (oh dirty bitch!);

5. Could it be the darkness, the pain, the coldness, the loneliness around a crying child who grows up with a thought hammering in her head and a voice whispering in her ears saying: ''Be a good girl and take their eyes off with this knife because... they don't love you''...?

Well, my particular view of BIZARRE is: Growing up as a good girl/guy in a lovely family stealing the other kid's toys; going to the most worthy college and making thousand friends who keep their capsules of extasy on their pockets; getting an exelent job where you destroy, hide and steal that amazing and profitable project of your co-worker; having two beautiful kids who you send to a boarding school after they being abused by your sick partner and at last growing old peacefully on your confortable chair with your disgusting bloody hands you MOTHERFUCKER HYPOCRITE!

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BUT... IT'S MY NATURE!

Why are you calling me wild when i'm just defending my kingdom?

By chance do you think that running off is the same of winsdom?

Why are you telling me to retreat when i'm still furious?

Do you really believe that lowering the guard am i gonna be succesful?

Why are you asking me to don't take their lives when my survival means revenge?

By chance do you believe that perfidious ones can change?

Why are you telling me to being an angel when devils are stronger?

It's late... because the pain made me a hell belonger.

Why are you shouting with me to don't make more rolling blood?

If they made me bleed much more than i could?

In the end i can never ever change...

Because my beast nature was forged by pain...

The eternal companion of the damned!

SICK!

This is the prelude to dementia
Where it is not possible to discern
Where ends the laughter or sadness
Where to start laughing or crying.

This is the garden of dead flowers
Where the chimera have such vivid colors
Where the black lady knocks on the door
But her visit is only a glimpse.

The eyes frozen in the invisible ...
The hostility goes throught them
Black hair, joke, smile,
A frown, treachery, vanity.

The other creatures of dementia?
It's the gaze of the flashes of old,

It's being in  euphoria and inertia,
It's having at own face morning and dawn.